Boss Stress June 6, 2009
Posted by realove in 1156.trackback
sigh… this past week has been one stressful event after another. and i’ve become a person i dont like. i’m actually partaking in office politics:(
my boss has been spreading news about me fighting with her while i was away. i only got to know about it after i came back. she told people that she has asked to me transfer because of my bad character. but she hasnt told me anything. and i feel v insulted and frustrated. she’s a horrible boss. lazy, greedy, bad hearted and makes false claims to get more income. she treats us all like her personal slaves. and she has the cheek to say i haf a bad character just because i refuse to be bullied by her? sigh… the worst is that i cant do anything about her. she’s the ‘queen of the fort’ and she just does whatever she wants. have done so for years. others have complained but she’s on very good terms with the higher bosses and all the complaints were swept under the carpet. that’s so sad. she’s complaining about me to the big boss and i feel so sad about that. i truly truly regret the day i agreed to come here. because of her, my good record has been marred. i applied for my transfer on thursday. and since then, she has been telling others that i will be transfered soon because i’ve made a fuss and insisted on being transferred (about half of my other colleagues have also applied for transfer because they can’t stand her either). i wish there was something i could do about her. i’ve schemed and planned and used gossips and office politics to let her know that if she continues disturbing me, i’ll make trouble for her. i feel like a shit. planning bad things on purpose. and there is so much hatred in me. so much frustration. no peace at all. i feel so far from God. so so far. i cant feel Him at all. all i think about his her, the things i would like to say and do to her, as well as how to control the damage she’s wrecking on my career and image. sigh… last friday was the last day that i let myself be involved in office politics directly. i felt so dirty. i refuse to do it anymore. sigh… pls pray for my peace of mind, and a quick transfer…
i think it’s human to feel angry and vengeful. and i really don’t quite believe in being all holy and all. i mean try the best you can, but sometimes it’s good to let it out.
but i’m glad you know that it’s not healthy for you to do so long term so yup, stick to the resolution of not partaking in it anymore…
Well sometimes you can’t help but have to play office politics. It’s how you get promoted and how you get out of lowsy situations. But it’s probably best not to be on the ’shit giving’ side of the equasion. I’m sure your transfer will come through quickly and whoever your new boss is will see that you are not some trouble starter and that you are a hard worker and dismiss whatever the Bitch said. Bitch’s colleagues probably already know of her bad tacticts and don’t put much stock in her lies. Well, hopefully they do, anyway.
God’s always there you just have to reach up to Him and He will be there for you.