New Goal May 31, 2009
Posted by realove in Feelings, Life, Personal, Thoughts.trackback
i spent the weekend being DEPRESSED. alternating between missing him so damn much, and telling myself it serves me right that i’m so miserable now coz i got involved with a married man. he’s so perfect. physically he’s perfect. and we have so much in common. and we have the same line of thought about so many things. we love the same things. we would have been great together:S i miss him! and i cant help but hope that they’ll break up and he’ll come to me. haha. that’ll never happen. and after a few days, he would just be a good memory. anyway, i’ve decided that today is my last day of depression. i refuse to spend my precious time crying over spilt milk and hoping for the impossible.
i have decided on a new goal. superficial. but interesting. i have decided to be a man-magnet! hhhmm…. i have nothing to lose. i’m bored and lonely anyway. worst case scenario: i’m bored and lonely even though i try. haha. i’ve been reading some stuff on the net. doing research (i’m pathetic – i do research for everything:P)
My strategy to be a man-magnet:
1. EXTREME CONFIDENCE in my ability to attract men
2. Great attitude – cheerful, funny, sweet
3. Belief in myself
4. ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY
5. shining eyes
6. smiling lips
7. poise and style
8. unique-ness (no such word)
9. think sexy and i will be sexy
10. positivity
11. feminimity
this last ‘fling’ has given me a boost in self-confidence. after so many one-sided crushes, suddenly this guy is attracted to me back. and that’s amazing. for a long while, i never dreamed that would happen. and he isnt just an average joe either. he’s tall, handsome, popular, other ppl gravitate towards him, other girls were flirting with him, and he was attracted to me. WOW.
and that gives me the boost in confidence that maybe i wont be alone forever:)
btw, just an update, after the ending of our course, we have since stopped direct contact. he stopped first and i didnt pursue it. he probably intended to put a stop to it once we’re not together physically because when we were together, we couldnt stop ourselves from seeking each other out. its probably considered ‘cheating’ in his case and he’s not the kind of guy to cheat. and i understand that we cant be in contact anymore. but one of his last words were for me to keep being cheerful and care-free because it fits me and makes everything fun:) awww….
At least this new goal keeps my mind of him and i think i would have fun trying:)
1. Believing yourself worthy of a man.
2. Don’t be moppy.
3. Confidence.
4. Don’t be moppy.
5. Smile.
6. Smile.
7. Confidence.
8. Be yourself.
9. Be a tigeress.
10. Confidence.
11. Don’t be a man, leave that to the man?
So see, shorter list than you thought. Easier to manage fewer things. Oh, and don’t forget to flash that wicked smile at someone you’re interested in. A slight look down, eye contact, with your head cocked to the side, and and half grin should do it. Practice it in the mirror. Practice I say!