Too down to blog March 24, 2009
Posted by realove in Fears, Feelings, Life, Love, Me, Personal, Relationships, Thoughts.trackback
hi guys:) thanks for realizing i was missing. haha. i guess this past week i was too depressed to do any blogging. alot happened in the past week. in 2 very important aspects of my life. my love life (none of note) and my health. it started when i went to the course i was talking about. i was so excited about the course but from the first day itself, i developed a facial malar rash. this is de second time in 2 months. at the same time, i met a guy whom i was very interested in. but surprises, he is still hung up over his ex.
when i reached back to my home, i was still v hopeful about him. and for the past 1 week, have been checking my facebook and handphone multiple times a day in the hopes that he will message. obviously, it was all in vain.
also, the malar rash has worried me alot. coupled with multiple other symptoms, worsening gastritis starting 5 yrs ago, lethargy, muscle aches and mood swings, palpitations, worsening allergies, and more recently, swollen, peeling lips and the surrounding skin. i had put down all those symptoms to extreme stress until the rash happened the 2nd time. please pray for me that i dont haf SLE. i keep thinking, why me? its bad enough that i have no one beside me and keep experiencing heartbreak after heartbreak. but to give me SLE too… that’s just… sad….
i took blood tests for SLE yesterday and am trying to totally overhaul my lifestyle, diet, and stress levels. all while trying to forget this guy whom i’ve not forgotten yet. therefore, was too down to write. Pray for me, please for the SLE
God dont let me have an auto-immune disease.
Eh woman. i just read up a bit on SLE. You need to also avoid sunlight! And pls stop stressing yourself out. stop thinking abt the men. stop thinking abt the fact that you’re alone! celebrate the fact that you can go out with many many people without having to worry. celebrate that you’re enjoying the chase. i mean the sweetest part of the courtship is always the chase. that’s the excitement, does he like me, does he not? don’t sell yourself short by trying to rush things. if it’s meant to be, it will.
that said, i know it’s hard cos i’m also struggling with the whole loneliness thing. so let’s both take it easy and give each other support.
Well, obviously, you were meant to be alone and die in pain… yeah, like I’d really say that. The right undamaged (or at least not too damaged) guy just hasn’t presented himself to you. That’s all. He’ll come along when he comes along. No sooner and no later than he’s supposed to. You just have to get yourself ready to recieve him.
And I certainly hope you don’t have Lupus. I have a former co-worker who has Lupus. Most days she was fine but there were days when she couldn’t get out of bed because of the pain. I’ll pray for you and hope the results come back negative.
Oh and let us know what the result of the test is. So we can adjust our prayers/good thoughts accordingly.
I hope you’ve found a new church to your liking. It really does help to have that support in times of crisis. There will always be someone who’ll help you through us other than the ephemeral voices you get over the internet like Rynestar and me.
yup. we’re like your internet grannies. i don’t know why i said that, but somehow i felt like saying that.
or talk to people you’re close to on msn. or the phone. buy those talk time phone cards, they’re cheaper to use.