Living Life Bravely

the bastard asked another girl out in front of me=(

he asked her directly to go for a movie. and without lowering his voice or avoidance of eye contact=( when he asks me out, he will just hint indirectly, avoid eye contact, and the moment i hesitate, he changes his mind.

most of the time, he just hangs around when its time for lunch waiting for me to ask him to go lunch. and i always thought that was his shy way of spending more time with me. shy my foot. with a strong voice he asked her out. in front of others. she has a bf, granted, but wow, the braveness of it all. and he repeated his Q twice. i couldnt belief my ears or eyes. and my heart just sort of cracked. and i felt a pain inside at the lunch table. i just hope nobody noticed the change of expression on my face.

sigh… bastard. i want to be free from him. but i keep going back to finding chances to spend with him. i like him. and i dont like him. but truthfully, the main thing i dont like about him is that he isnt being more decisive about liking me. but i think now, it probably not that he’s indecisive. its probably that he doesnt like me. coz even a ’shy’ guy like him is able to just out a girl out if they’re really interested.

sad me.