Living Life Bravely

i enjoyed myself thoroughly today. i had an adrenaline-filled morning where i saw patient after patient in the clinic, then i had an adrenaline-filled afternoon in the wards where again i saw patient after patient, settling everything before 5. then i went grocery shopping! although that doesnt sound great but i had fun. and it was so relaxing. and i came back and had kfc for dinner while watching 9th episode of gilmore girls season 4. then i had kiwi and persimmom for dessert. and that was when it hit me. no matter how much i enjoy myself with small things like this, i’m still alone. and there is no potential guy at all i mean AT ALL in the horizon as far as far as far as i can see. and as i become more and more accomplished in my job (which i definitely will) there will be less and less potential guys. and i’m depressed. and terrified. i dont want to be alone. more to the point, i am terrified that i might die without meeting that special person. and i just dont understand at all. people uglier than me have bofriends. people horribeller than me have boyfriends. and people stupider than me haf boyfriends. i meet people who are attracted to me everyday. i turn heads when i walk past (not all heads but my fair share:P) so why isnt a guy chasing after me?! sucks. i wish i knew. at least i would know what to change. i suppose theres something wrong with me or my character or something. but i dont even know what, how am i supposed to change it? sigh….