Living Life Bravely

ii’m still in conflict about whether he’s interested in me. i’m still begging God to let him be interested in me, or anybody else that’s suitable for me. i’m still asking God to not let me be alone anymore. i’m still having gastric pains. and i’m still greeting the morning alone.

But this morning was beautiful. every morning is beautiful. i was woken up at 6am by his message and when i woke up, the smell of the morning was so wonderful i couldnt go back to sleep. and i just woke and sat beside the window and took in the morning breaths and sights. and i wish there was someone to share this beautiful experience with me but feeling it alone doesnt diminish its beauty one bit.

and i realized i’ve been going into over-drive. with work and mostly with stressing out about him. and its been a long time since i stopped and ’smelled the roses’. its time to relax abit yeah?