Living Life Bravely

nothing has changed. i’m still alone. i’m horribly sick. taking care of myself. feel miserable wen i lie on the bed and think that there is not even 1 person other than my family who was concerned that i’m sick. on the other hand, at least i haf a wonderful family’s who cares. this just makes me realize even more that there is no one except God and myself to take care of me. so i must b strong. i AM strong actually. proud of where i stand now as a person.

i cant say i’m not disappointed that he isnt interested. of course i am. damn disappointed. but i’m not surprised. abit worried that he might tell his sisters (who work in the same workplace!) and they would laugh about it=( but this also makes me want to improve myself more so that i have nothing to be embarassed about. u know, the kind of image where ppl look at u and think oh its not that nobody wants u, its that u choose to be single. hehe. dreams dreams. but i AM improving actually. my latest hairstyle has added even more zing to my image. and hopefully one day, i will meet a guy who doesnt have an ego problem or who is more successful than me, so ego is not a problem=)

oh just need to add something so irritating about him. he’s a wonderful guy, loyal, honest, sincere… but as with many guys, especially short guys, he has a mega ego problem. can u imagine he is embarassed to be seen with me in the workplace coz i’m his senior?! he doesnt want ppl to think that he’s going after a senior. btw we’re the same age, its just that i joined 1 yr earlier than him. man, fucking useless bastard. hahaha… guys and their egos will be the death of me yet.