NEW DAY August 18, 2008
Posted by realove in Feelings, Life, Me, Personal, Sadness, Thoughts.add a comment
i prayed to God on waking that i would find something to cheer me up on the net and thanks to a surprise motivation which made me smile, i AM cheered up=) thank you… i will keep my spirits up til a minimum of 12pm today! and that’s just my minimum mind u… and i will study sthing useful in my free time today, if i have nothing to say in the face of so many cheerful ppl today, i will just smile and join in the camaderie. i will use positive thinking to better my life! and i will try my best so that i can log on tonight with something to good to write, and pray tonight with something good to thank God about.
Feel Sad Today August 18, 2008
Posted by realove in Feelings, Life, Love, Me, Pain, Personal, Sadness, Thoughts.2 comments
i finished my holiday with high hopes and big goals about changing my outlook in life and being a more sociable person, being more popular and smiley and beautiful and energetic! and end up on my first day back at work feeling down. y? coz i cudnt keep the smile on my face for long, coz there were other more energetic and happy ppl around, coz i felt plain and ugly beside them. coz when i saw couples i felt so bad being alone as usual. the guy i am half interested in is not even interested in me enough to go after me, but is just encouraging me to go after him. isnt dat pathetic? feel like shit. but i will feel better tmw. gonna sleep now and regain back some energy. today i managed to be ‘energetically happy’ until 11 am… hopefully tmw it’ll b longer… geeyap!
