Living Life Bravely

I wished for happiness with you, real relationship, real love. i got a breakup instead. hahaha.ironic.isit a sign? that it happened on christmas day? is God saying i will give u happiness, just not with him? i really dono. it hurts like hell. i want to die. just want to explode. so much stress n tension inside. so much sadness. all my dreams all my future was centered around you. all i wanted was you. all i needed was you. i gave up everything important to me for you. but all i can do today is to let you go. how am i to face the world? how to face tomorrow? we’ve been together for 8 yrs. i dont know any other life. i dont know how to live a life without you in it. where do i start? im scared. i love u so much. so sad. can there be so much sadness in me? where does it end? when does it start to get better? Oh God. Be with me in this time of need. i haf no one to turn to.